Sunday, August 30, 2009

Natural Rhythm

I started reading a book called 'The 12 stages of Healing: A Network Approach to Wholeness' by Donald Epstein. Parts of the book recap what I already know about healing but there are a few things that struck me enough to add them to my blog.

This small section of the book is talking about the natural rhythms of life like night and day, seasons, life and death, ocean tides, breathing pattern, human heart beat and cycles in the growth of plants. "The healing art of Qigong is based on understanding the rhythmic pulses of the energy body. If we look closely at our lives, we can see a subtle, natural rhythm in our intimate relationships, as well has rhythms that connect us to family and friends. These cycles are changing all the time."

How this relates to healing? "Suffering occurs when the rhythm of our thoughts and actions is incompatible with the greater rhythm of our bodies and with the greater natural rhythms of life. When these rhythms cannot work in harmony for the growth and betterment of self, then suffering develops. Through suffering we are able to experience an amplification of the rhythm that is ignored, repressed or denied of energy. Suffering is what makes us aware-even if not consciously- that are actions and thoughts are not in harmony with the greater rhythms that guide our lives."

This post may seem fairly open-ended but I hope to add to it. Mostly, I just wanted to share something I found interesting.


Friday, August 28, 2009

Falling into Place

Approxamately 32 days away from moving and everything is falling into place perfectly. I wanted to find a place to live with at least 1 other girl, in a house, not far from school, dog friendly environment, with garage or carport, $350 or less for rent and find it 3-4 weeks before I move. I found it yesterday. Everything I wanted and rent is CHEAPER. $308/mo. What a deal!
My gut tells me this is the move I've been waiting for. Everything feels right. Everything is in place for an easy transition. I've been going through everything in my mind of what I want to happen and so far so good!
The next issues to deal with are my stuff- garage sale and packing.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

<3 My Job

During the last few years of high school when the subject of college and a future career started coming up, my parents and aunt always told me to do what you love. They asked, "if you could do anything in the world for a career, what would you do?" This quote keeps popping up in my life as I hear friends complaining about their jobs. Yes, sometimes you need an icky job to get you through rough times with bills but my advice is to work to get to a job you will LOVE.
Sometimes I complain about having edit hundreds of wedding photos, or fix blemishes off of high school seniors' faces, or get up before 10am on a Saturday to shoot a wedding but overall I love what I do. I get to meet very interesting people, experience events that I normally wouldn't and stand back and watch people for a job.
Here is a Megan Letterman Top 10 List of Reasons I Love My Job:
10.) My office has a view out of the window (of my neighbor's tomato patch)
9.) I make my own hours
8.) I get to capture happy memories
7.) I get to see brand new babies and puppies
6.) My product is non-replicable so nobody can steal it
5.) I get giddy when the UPS man comes (delivery of albums or prints)
4.) I can watch tv while I work
3.) My boss is awesome
2.)I have the option of working with really sexy male models
And the #1 reason I love my job:
I can work in whatever clothes, or lack there of, I want

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Things or Memories?

The closer it is till D-day (aka moving day), the more I think about how much I will miss this life. In effort to combat my sadness, I started taking pictures of things and people, but mostly things, I love. Most of these things are in my house or part of my house. I'm not quite sure why I'm so attached to my one story, 2 bedroom, 1 bath, large kitchen, wet basement house but I am. We have a great connection. She takes care of me and I take care of her- well, my dad helps here and there. I mostly make her pretty and welcoming. Even before I moved in, I started planning what my own house would look like. Before the possibility of having my own house took shape, I had started saving my waitressing tips for house decorations and I kept the extra money in a Bible. (Not completely sure why I kept it there but I think it made me feel like I was in the depression or something. Note, this was way before our bad economy situation.) Anyway, I started out buying anything cheap that I slightly liked. Then I advanced to artsy and splurged here and there. I've basically stayed like that. I do have some art pieces directly from the artist but only one piece of my own that is hanging up.

I not only decorate the inside but I've planted lots of flowers- annuals and perennials- and bushes. I got some blueberry bushes about 2 weeks before I decided I was going to move. I was a little disappointed in the timing. I mow the yard, weekly, and sweep the sidewalks and the driveway. I take pride in my cute, little house and I'd like to believe she takes pride in me.

While realizing that I'm going to miss these things, I ask myself why I am so attached to THINGS. Is it the memory of buying them or finding the perfect place for them? If I'm so spiritual then shouldn't I be past the level of valuing physical things? I've pondered this a lot- with fashion. Part of me could easily wear Goodwill or homemade clothing for the rest of my life while the other part of me still enjoys keeping up with fashion trends and trying to look like a 5"2 and 1/2 super model. Even if I lived on a desolate farm, I still think I'd like to get gussied up once in awhile.

So, am I attached to things because of the feeling it once gave me or the memory I have with it? Probably. I also think it is part of the details in the memories I have. It's like a bride and her wedding dress. Her wedding day is not about the dress- it's about marrying her partner- but the dress is one of the details that won't be forgotten.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

At the Brink of a Revolution I Know Exists

I went to the library today, which is one of my favorite places to spend hours on end, and came away with four books that I can't wait to read. I started reading one but was too excited about another book to read too much more of the first.

This book, 'The Field' by Lynne McTaggart, will help me describe and more fully understand what I will do in Arizona and possibly the rest of my life. (A pretty good book, huh??)

The Prologue is a killer. This is the time for everyone to put on their thinking caps and focus in.

"The Field provides scientific validation of areas which have largely been the domain of religion, mysticism, alternative medicine or New Age speculation. For a number of decades respected scientists in a variety of disciplines all over the world have been carrying out well-designed experiments that have shown that at our most elemental, we are not a chemical reaction, but an energetic charge. Human beings and all living things are a compound of energy in a field of energy connected to every other thing in the world. This pulsating energy field is the central engine of our being and our consciousness, the alpha and omega of our existence."

In other words we are all made of the same basic material. " On our most fundamental level, living beings, including human beings, are packets of quantum energy constantly exchanging information with an inexhastible sea of energy. Living things emit a weak radiation, and this is the most crucial aspect of biological processes. Information about all aspects of life, from cellular communcation to the vast array of controls of our DNA, is relayed through an information exchange on the quantum level. Thinking, feeling- every higher cognitive function-has to do with the quantum information pulsating simultatneously through our brains and body. Human perception occurs because of the interctioins between the subatomic particles of our brains and the quantum energy sea. We literally resonate with our world." This 'quantum sea of energy' could also be called a life force, collective consciousness or, as theologians have termed it, the Holy Spirit. Scientists have provided a plausible explanation of all those areas that over the centuries mankind has had faith in but no solid evidence of." (By the way, these ideas are considered quantum physics.)

Now, those of you readers who have stuck with me this far and haven't heard of any of this before are probably wondering why more people don't know about these experiments. "I mean, if it's the key of our existence, then why am I just now hearing about it from a damn blog?!?!"

Let me explain my dear friends. These ideas were the stuff of treason. In many cases, these scientists have to fight against a hostile establishment. Their investigations have gone on for over 30 years, largely unacknowledged or suppressed, but not because the quality of the work but because their results does not fit the prevailing scientific view of the world. Acknowledging these new ideas would require scrapping much of what modern science believed in and, in a sense, starting over from scratch. It is time to usher in the new rules and discard the old ones.

(For more information on this topic, get to the library. Or at least rent a movie called 'What the Bleep Do We Know.")

Seacrest Out.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

A Wicked New Path

I've been wanting to write or tell someone about my special connection to a certain broadway musical song but I need to update those of you who haven't talked to me in the past few months or don't even know me. 
First of all, I'm leaving the good ol' midwest in October and taking my first big adventure with moving.  This kind of moving is not the same as moving 16 blocks away from my parent's house or even moving 90 minutes away for college. This is moving 24 hours away from my hometown where I know where everything is, having tons of connections and most of all, my support system is all around me. This move is a rather big personal step for me and I'm excited, scared, anxious, hopeful and thankful.  I've known for a few years that I need to spread my wings and leave the Indiana nest but I didn't know where I was suppose to go or what I was suppose to do. I did a lot of thinking in what I need and want out of a community, what kind of weather I'd prefer, what career I want to do and how moving will inspire or hender my personal need to evolve. Over the couple years of thinking, my passion for new age beliefs started to expand. Some of these beliefs include life after death, healing and a person's reason for existence on this earth at this time. I read lots and lots of books, meditated, talked to anyone who had an open mind, journaled  and took a few classes. As my spirituality grew, the more I yearned to know more about my fave subjects. 
Jump to May 2009. I thought I had my mind set on moving to Colorado (Denver or Boulder areas) because of the feel of the area and the people. I had just started telling friends and extended family about the move when my friend, Tiff, who is as much into the new age subjects as I am found this AH-MAZING school in Tempe, Arizona. It's called Southwest Institute of the Healing Arts. WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! Doesn't the name even sound wonderful? Tiff announced that she was going to enroll there in the winter. As soon as I checked out their website with the list of classes, I was hooked like a 30lb bass on a 8 year old's fishing rod. A few of the classes I found interesting were hynotherapy, life coaching and reiki. (I've been told by several mediums and by my spirit guides that I am a healer and I need to learn reiki.)  

Insert definition of Reiki (pronounced " ray kee"): A therapy that helps to maintain the universal life-energy. It brings about healing on all levels- physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. The reiki practitioner uses a hands-on technique where the energy flows through palms and  causes healing.

Okay- done with the update. Phew, that took awhile. Now back to my connection with a Broadway song.

So, the song is Defying Gravity from Wicked with Kristen Chenoweth and Idina Menzel. (Absolutely AH-MAZING vocalists and actresses!!)
Here is a link to the song:

I was first introduced to this song by my mom's boss (Dr. Cook), who is a musical fanatick :). He had gotten wind that I was seeing this musical in a few weeks and had me listen to this song (while in a dentist chair). When I first heard it, I was thinking "ya, that is a cool song" but didn't understand how powerful it is until you've seen the show. (To those of you 2 people who haven't seen the show, GO SEE IT!!!) After, I saw the show I bought the soundtrack but couldn't help but playing over and over again Defying Gravity. I listened more and more to the lyrics and they deeply touched me. I found many connections to my life. I'm sure you're wondering what they are so I'll outline them for you:

Lyrics- " Something has changed within me, something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing. Too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap. It's time to try defying gravity. I think I'll try defying gravity and you can't bring me down." 

Related to MP's life-  My thoughts on life have changed through my new found faith. I'm tired of saying I believe in things that I really wasn't sure about. Tired of going through the motions of church when they didn't mean much to me. I have trusted my instincts on my spiritual path thus far and now I'm closing my eyes and leaping by relocating my life and everything I once knew. Even though 98% of my friends and family don't understand how I feel, I'm leaping and therefore defying gravity. And you can't pull me down!

At the next section elphaba (the green and not necessarily the bad witch) asks Glinda to come with her and says "think of what we could do together." Then both of the witches sing:
"Unlimited. Together we're unlimited. Together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been. Dreams the way we planned 'em. If we work in tandom, there's no fight we cannot win. Just you and I defying gravity ... they'll never bring us down."

Related to MP- I interpret this section in two ways. 1.) The other person (Glinda) could be my friend Tiff who is moving to AZ too. We'll be taking some of the same classes and most likely experiencing the same things as we grow. 2.) The other person can be other humans who have opened themselves up to love, taking the road less taken and have believed so strongly in something and went through with it.

Lyrics- "I hope you're happy now that you're choosing this. You too. I hope it brings you bliss. I really hope you get it and don't live to regret it. I hope you're happy in the end. I hope you're happy, my friend. So if you care to find me, look to the western sky. As someone told me lately, everyone deserves the chance to fly. And if I'm flying solo, at least I'll be flying free...."

Related to MP- (Note to those 2 people who didn't see Wicked, Glinda and Elphaba don't leave together, don't defy gravity together.) Fairly self-explanitory but I love how the lyrics say "look to the western sky" since I'm moving out west.  

The main part of the song ends with " No wizard that there is or was is ever gonna bring me down." The wizard can be a lot of things in my life, including my own doubts but ultimately, they're not going to bring me down.

End Scene. 

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Does God Exist?

I found this monthly journal that is mailed to God-loving people's houses. (Unfortunately, I found it at one of my friend's houses.) Well, I guess I should start out and say that it's not that I don't believe in God. I believe in a higher power whether you call it God, The Almighty, Spirit, etc.  The name is not important. 
Anyway, on the front of this journal is the underlying reason this journal exists. It says "we are a nonprofit effort to convince mankind that God is real and the Bible is His Word." WHOA!!!!!!!!! Stop right there almighty human who wrote that. I had to read that about 5 times to make sure I understood it correctly. WHOA!!!!!!!!! That's heavy. First of all, why do you want to convince mankind that God exists? Is it really that big of a deal that even a single person believes in "God". What if the author's best friend believes in Spirit  but not God? Will the author try to convince his BFF to switch over? I think this is redonkulous.I mean really? 
Even though I was about to throw up, I had to fulfill my curiosity of what was inside this journal. Surprisingly enough, it had some decent articles in it. One was an essay written by a scholarship winner about how science and faith can work together in medicine. She starts out with a quote from Plato, "The greatest mistake in the treatment of diseases is that there are physicians for the body and physicians for the soul, although the two cannot be separated." She goes on to talk about how even though this was said many years ago, his ideas are still pertinent in today's society and are becoming even more mainstream. I don't want to delve into my opinions on this matter yet or how I'm starting to make a difference in this crazy world but I will conclude that you can't always judge a book by it's cover, even if you want to use it as rolling papers. Also, I begrudgingly admit that I was being a hypocrite before I wrote this. I hated the fact that this journal very strongly supported the faith in God and left out the fact that God is whatever you make of it. I did not consider I could switch the word God to Spirit or Higher Source. I realize now that it's not the fact they used the word God but instead that they're trying to CONVINCE MANKIND of something. I personally strongly dislike people that try to convince me of something, especially religion. I am not a fan of religion. The Higher Source is way too big, way too deep for our little human minds to understand let alone categorize it. People make things out what they want to be. They have their reasons. It's not my purpose on earth to convince anyone. I'm just here to make the best out of what I experience and hope that my beliefs make things easier for me to understand and easier to love everyone. 

Peace and love everyone.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

First is the worst, right?

So, if the saying is correct, my first entry in my second blog should be the worst and it probably will be. Needless to say, I'm not quite sure why I'm starting this blog (my personal blog) but I feel like I should have one. Maybe I should use the excuse that it'll be a way for my friends and family to keep up with me when I move. On the other tip of the scale, I'm not quite sure I'll let anyone read this.
Perhaps, blogs are like anything else- it takes awhile to get good at. I mean, I sit here thinking that my life is not too interesting. Well, I mean, it is to me, but probably not even for my dog, let alone anyone who can read. (Speaking of, Biscuit is asleep behind me on the floor.) BUT, I sort of half way enjoy reading some of my friends' blogs. Maybe this blog will encourage me to take more photos just to capture great moments or the beauty of life. I've always had an eye for beauty and would love to capture it in a box that would allow it to live forever, but not even the best camera in the world can see the exact same beauty I can. It's not necessarily about seeing the beautiful thing, it's about feeling it- touching, tasting, smelling and feeling with ever once of your energy. If there's one thing I wish I could take a picture of it'd be love. I don't mean the act of loving. I mean the actual energy that IS love. Is there such a thing? Yes, I believe so. Have you ever looked into a person's eyes that are in love? Maybe before a wedding or while they're holding their child? You can feel the love. THAT'S what I'd like to capture with my camera. In some ways I can. 
In my first year of studying photography in college, I wanted to shoot a project that revolved around emotions. I distinctly remember telling my teacher that I wanted to capture every emotion. She asked if it would be real or reenacted. I said real. She then explained that she didn't think it would be easy because people act different when there's a camera around and she's completely right. Take weddings for example. Couples pay me a rather nice amount of money to capture the love and emotions surrounding their 'once in a lifetime' day. However, people become so uptight around my camera that they forget to let their love shine through. Maybe I should hide my camera in a purse with a hole like they do in spy movies. 
Well, I suppose that is enough ranting for tonight. Maybe I'll post some pics....maybe. I dunno.
So, how was my first blog? Hopefully, everything will be uphill from here.